Hi God,
As You're well aware, I'd really like to have a baby. The desire in me is so strong - SO strong. It's been steadily growing for a long time now. I had to wait for Mr TC's treatment to finish - thank You so much that he made it through and he's ok. I'm grateful for so much in my life, truly. I can feel greedy at times for wanting more - but do I just sit back and cut my losses, and be content with my beautiful Tiger? Or do I strive ahead and give this everything I have?
I have been crying a lot lately because I'm shit scared of starting IVF - but even more shit scared of letting go of my dream. I can't seem to get the go-ahead from the doctors, which leaves me in limbo land. God - I don't like Limboland. It sucks.
So - much as I don't want to ... I am handing it over to You. I hope and pray that there is a baby up there for me. But if there's not ... well ... I need to know. I need to make the right choices here, and I need Your help. I'm not in control of what will happen, but I am in control of my reaction to what happens.
I'd appreciate it if You could make my path a little brighter. Because at the moment I can't see.
And God - please, please let Monys little Hef be ok.
love TC xoxoxoxoxo
3 comments:
Limboland is a difficult place to be.
I hope your prayer is answered.
Hang in there. I can say that I always saw IVF as the holy grail. The be all and end all, and when our first then 2nd full cycle failed I just got so sad and frustrated.
I've been crying a lot lately too.. this little frozen bean has decided to at least try to make a home..
Don't give up, don't be scared... a million celebrity women can't be wrong.. IVF must work!! :-)
Regina - thank you for that! SO true about the million celebrity women!! (I'll just pretend I'm a celebrity ..) Good luck with your lil bean - do you have a blog? xo
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