Tuesday, 11 September 2007

Fuck This Shit. (10dp2dt) ***UPDATED***

Wanna hear something so, so funny? It's a real riot. I keep pissing on sticks! I can't stop! It started last week when I was waiting for the trigger to go - it did. I got a few snow whites. Then at 6dp2dt, I woke up and I kinda just KNEW that shit was going on down there. My boobs were so sore, kept waking up at 5am to piss, and could smell the notes in Tigers poo thirty metres away. I felt slight cramping and tugging, and was a teeny bit nauseous. I. Felt. Pregnant.

I went to my sisters house, didn't test again until Sunday (8dp2dt) - on an expensive test this time. I was in the public toilet of a shopping centre - looked down, and OMG there's a second line. A bit faint, but it's there. Wow. Me and the Universe had a secret - didn't tell anyone. (Still haven't!) So, yesterday I bought some cheaper tests, POASed in the loo of a cafe - why do I keep pissing in public? So classy. Anyway, I got back into my car and put the test on my console, and watched it disappear down the cracks. Forever! It aint budging! So now there is a pregnancy test stuck somewhere in the crevices of my Fancy Schmancy car. What's worse - I didn't even get to read it yet, so I'll never know what that one said.

Now, this is all great. I couldn't believe it, first time lucky, yadda yadda. SO grateful and amazed. I was telling Mr TC that I'm pretty sure it's happened, I can just feel it, etc. Then, last night in bed, I just didn't feel pregnant anymore. And I cried. I felt like it had gone away, or tried but stopped. When I told Mr TC (crying) I said "Well, least you don't have to panic now." He was SO cranky I said that, told me to stop blaming him. So, this morning I do two different types of tests - they are both positive. One faint, but you can definitely see it.

So, I wonder how many more I will piss on? I'm not even attempting to pretend I won't. My beta isn't for another 8 sleeps. I don't believe anything now. I don't believe any pee stick, any sore boobie, any 6th sense, any shit-smelling superpower. I just need to WAIT UNTIL MY BETA. Isn't that what they recommend to begin with?? Ha ha ha. Told you it was funny.

*******Updated - Well, ummmmm, I feel hopeful again. (Sheepish). Pushing my trolley around the supermarket, I was salivating over chilli sauce and chips and dips. Literally salivating like Homer. And my tummy feels - full. I bought a three-pack of cheapie pee sticks, and a two-pack of expensive ones. I know, I know, - but I'm beyond help. Plus, I will "officially" do a pee test in the morning, when Mr TC is here. OMG!!! Now, I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, or next week, or freaking next month ..... but fuck it. Put the kettle on - Hope's arrived!!

Wooo hooo!!

21 comments:

Stacie said...

I am keeping everything crossed that the damn sticks are telling you the truth!!!!! Now the next phase oh poas addiction is when you start comparing (and obsessing about) the darkness of the stupid lines. Don't do it to yourself, I beg you!

Sending hugs your way...and loads of positive sticking vibes!

anna said...

You may not believe it...I sure didn't when I saw two lines, but I think you're pregnant....eeek! Even if you're not excited yet, I'm very, very excited for you! Now stop taunting your poor hubby whose privates are probably still bruised! Just kidding...fingers crossed for you!

Fertilize Me said...

YEAH YEAH YEHA YEHA YEAH, you may not beleive it but i KNEW when i seriously had to type the letters BFP in one of your posts for part of my word verification.. THIS IS IT!!

M said...

Whoa, I haven't visited in a while and there's lots of good stuff going on! Hang out til beta - pee sticks are evil!!

M said...

Oops sorry that was me!

Drowned Girl said...

10 dpo is about as early as you can hope for a line... so that looks just GREAT!

No chance you can get an earlier beta, if you confess?

xx

Chas said...

I think I told you this, but my clinic doesn't wait a full two weeks before doing the beta, so you're probably safe! I was "first time lucky" too...it happens!! I've got a little girl in the next room to prove it.

Good luck, and I'll definitely be thinking of you and the little baby floating around in there!

Geohde said...

OOhhhhhhh hon (vicarious excitement),


Shit, I hope it is.

xxx


J

Von said...

Not one bit surprised. Had a "feeling" something was cooking for you.
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Vee said...

I hope this is it for you TC !
I have everything crossed.

Reproductive Jeans said...

ALL is crossed=)

Imogen and David said...

How exciting. POAS is an expensive obsession even if you do justify it by buying the cheapies, lol. Can't wait to hear about your lines getting darker everyday leading up to your BETA :D

Gemini Girl said...

TC... U peed on a stick! I know it's a no-no... but I did it as well and it was positive. I am so happy for you but I dont want to assume. So let's wait for the beta before we throw a virtual party.

My prayers are with you little one. Oh how I hope your pregnant!

Carrie said...

Yipee, TC. Yipee x

SaraS-P said...

pee on as many sticks as you need to!

Diana said...

Can't you call them and tell them you got a BFP and want your beta NOW!!!!!??? We want numbers dammit!!!

Congrats on getting all knocked up!

Knock Me Up said...

I say, pee until you can't pee anymore!

V. happy this is looking good.

Frank N. Beans said...

Hey Top Cat! Sounds very promising, we are keeping our fingers crossed!
Uh... and I am sorry to be the one to say this, but what's up with the public testing? LOL! I've heard of people that like to have sex in public, but pregnancy tests? That's what you do if you get pregnant by accident when you're sixteen!

chicklet said...

You are an addict:-) Good luck. HOpefully you won't have to POAS much longer.

The Dunn Family said...

Awesome! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! I never succumbed to peeing on the evil sticks ... but how can that many sticks lie???

r.a.w. said...

You are out of control, woman!! But I am glad that so many of them seem to be positive!!! Really looking forward to seeing your "official" results - hopefully in less than 8 sleeps!