Saturday, 25 August 2007

The Eggs are Gettin Bigger

Goodness me. Two more sleeps until:

1) We solve the case of the missing ovary
2) I know when/if/how I will trigger.

I have come to look forward to the long drives down and back to the hospital. And I love .... the Gonal F injections. They were the things I was most worried about! I remember earlier this year, finding out EXACTLY what doing IVF entailed, and crying so hard, I couldn't believe how invasive it was. But, I guess you kind of get used to it. It's amazing how we adapt, how the abnormal becomes normal.

So, I'm pretty sure I'm responding well. (Yay!) My tummy feels like this. I have to hold it to laugh. I showed off to Mr TC tonight with my Puffy White Pen, and made him squirm as I shot up. Felt pretty fucking tough.

I can't actually believe that I'll make it to retrieval, it seems so surreal. After all these years. Sometimes I feel like there's a baby up there**, guiding me on, waiting .... and other times I just feel that this will all turn to shit, I'll have a MAJOR meltdown and howl at the Gods and take up smoking again and fly by myself to Paris on a whim. Strange.

I'm right smack bang in the middle of an IVF cycle. It's safe in the middle. I like it here. Big bloated gut and all - it's safe. The beginning was terrifying. And the end?

I have abso-fucken-lutely no idea.

** Up there as in heaven-type up there. Not up-the-vagina kind of up there.









12 comments:

Fertilize Me said...

Ok, that picture made me LAUGH out loud. How funny is that.

ultimatejourney said...

Great picture!

Best of luck on Monday.

Chas said...

You know, I don't think I'll ever get used to the IVF process. I do agree that you do kind of adapt to it though. It isn't too bad right there in the middle...it's always the waiting process that gets me. I cannot wait to hear about your trigger and the case of the missing ovary!

Amy R said...

You wrote a post straight from my heart. It is amazing how we adapt. So far, I've been feeling that the anticipation has been far worse than the experience, although I can't say its very comfortable right now. GREAT PICTURE! That made my morning! :) I also feel like we are safe in the middle, following this laid out schedule. The next few weeks though, waiting to see how the eggs are fertilized and then the 2ww; ugh. I'm so nervous to go there. Anyways, best of luck on Monday! I hope the 'unsolved mysteries' are solved :)

Frank N. Beans said...

Best linking picture ever!

Stacie said...

I liked being able to DO something active, which is why I didn't mind the stimming part all that much. I think the best part for me was the day of the retrieva--I got relief from the bloating, had some happy drugs, knew I had some eggs and hadn't ovulated early, and didn't have to worry if I was pg yet. Of course, the waiting begins shortly there after which isn't fun, but that one day was nice.

I am so excited for you and so hopeful that this is it!

Reproductive Jeans said...

HAHAHA...oh my goodness...thanks for the laugh=)

Yay for moving forward!

minus one said...

Where do you find these pictures?!!!! I agree, the "doing" is ALWAYS better than the "waiting". Good luck, Topcat...I've got fingers and toes crossed for you!

Anonymous said...

oh my freakin god you are too funny. Love ya mate xox

Not so anon-y-mous

Mony said...

My god. Are you PERKY? You sound positively "In Charge" and READY to roll!
Handling it like a Pro. Good girl.

Imogen and David said...

Your missing ovary has me intrigued! I can't wait to hear when you trigger too :)

Anonymous said...

Welcome to our worlds re the size of that gut!

Rex and Tee

Good luck today my fri-eond

Love Yer

xx