Monday, 13 August 2007


I just told Mr TC that by the end of this month we will (hopefully) be at retrieval/transfer stage, he literally choked on his cup of tea. "Shit! Fuck .... that's great!". I said I know - thank God, soon I will be put out of my misery, and we will know either way if this has a chance of working or not. I had another dream last night; that I had a girl. They are officially recurring, these baby girl dreams. Shizen!

New Things Topcat is Worried About:

  1. The Synarel hasn't worked and I have ovulated ...
  2. Mr Topcats spoof has eaten itself and is no longer ...
  3. The depression that made such a nasty home for itself in my head last week will come back to visit ...
  4. My next Big Kahuna appointment is on Friday, I think I may meet Mr Wandmonkey for the first time. Suddenly I'm shy ...
  5. I hope shooting up stims goes ok.
  6. This won't work and then I have a meltdown ...
Think that's about everything covered - oh, I guess, there is a chance .... that we manage to pull this off, get knocked up, and have a magnificent beautiful baby at the end of it all. Yeah - yeah there is that option too. I'm loving myself sick with that option.
I have come out of the IVF closet - with ONE person I know. It was such a relief. She knew quite a few people who'd done it, and succeeded. I really felt like I let a bit of steam out of the pressure cooker by confiding in her. Honesty IS the best policy. Who knew??
Please send some love to Von.

You're Alice's Adventures in Wonderland!

by Lewis Carroll

After stumbling down the wrong turn in life, you've had your mind
opened to a number of strange and curious things. As life grows curiouser and curiouser,
you have to ask yourself what's real and what's the picture of illusion. Little is coming
to your aid in discerning fantasy from fact, but the line between them is so blurry that
it's starting not to matter. Be careful around rabbit holes and those who smile to much,
and just avoid hat shops altogether.

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passingwindows said...

I hope it goes well and that the option you're loving is the one that comes up. Good luck, I'll be thinking of you.

I am obviously very out of pop culture because I didn't understand the N Ritchie reference but I am off to peruse all the gossip mags on the web, I am a real celebrity gossip slut. My favourite torture is to read about celebrity pregnancies, what a sucker for punishment.

May this month go fast and effortlessly and bring great things!

Fertilize Me said...

sounds like you are working through all the not-so-lucky feelings that revolve around fertiltiy assistance. Good for you - wishing the best for you

Von said...

1. Just because you can't feel it working doesn't mean it hasn't. It has worked and you have not ovulated.
2.The spoof has not eaten itself.
3.Once you can recognise the symptoms you can stop it before it gets out of hand.
4.Mr Wandmonkey will become your best friend. Do not be shy. He has seen "it" many times before.
5.I don't think you can get off your face on this stuff. Unless I was taking the wrong stuff. Which would explain a lot.
6.It will work and nothing will go wrong.
7.It will work so you will have no need to have meltdown.

This is what we call the power of positive thought.....

Geohde said...

Lol, I'm glad you're cycling a few weeks ahead of me. I don't even have to think of what to worry about next, I just read your blog ;)

topcat said...

Thank you for your reply Von!! xoxo