Sunday, 27 April 2008

K is for Kermit would have loved it ...

So. Tired. Mr TC was a mofo trooper today, setting up the cot, single bed, picking up change table, bassinette ..... heaps. At one point I looked up, and just said "Hon, thank you so much for doing this." He knew I didn't just mean his help today .... I meant everything. Agreeing to have another child ... for going back on his decision to have no more, just for me.
Because he loves me, and I let him. It's taken many years to let him love me. I'm glad he broke through and got me. Such a cool thing, this marriage business. Especially when we're on the same page.


I loved Tiger first ... the most fierce and sudden kind of love that just turned my world around. This love I have for my hubbie has taken years to grow, and nurture, and realise. Lately, I have been thinking "Wow, well now I will love FOUR people." (My brother was the firstest.) And it has scared me. I never used to love anyone ... least of all myself. If you don't love, you won't get hurt. Simple!! But how lonely and sad!!

So soon, there will be four people who I love so definitely, so intently and unconditionally. So much so, that I can't bear the thought of something happening to any of them. Freaks me out. I often think about how dreadful it would be to lose the ones you love ... while it helps me to live in the moment, it really is a bit stressful!


Today, me and Tiger and Mr TC went out for lunch. Mr TC took a photo of Tiger and I standing in autumn leaves (embryo transfer was spring! It's now autumn! Woo-hoo!!) We were driving home in the ute, turned this corner .... and there was the most amazing, vibrant rainbow I have ever seen in my life. We all gasped. Then ........... U2 came on the radio!! The 80's Bono with the long hair was belting out "Where the Streets Have No Name" - arguably the finest song ever written. Mr TC knows my belief that whenever a U2 song comes on randomly, it is Universes way of letting me know that everything is as it should be. He blasted it SO loud, we drove towards the perfect rainbow and parked the car, by then I was wiping away my tears. It was the whole arc, all the colours. If we had a shovel we could have dug for the pot of gold. But we didn't need to.


Oh - and I had my camera with me!!!! First is me and lil guyo ...




Second .... isn't it amazing!! Mr TC and Tiger are in the ute ...


Third .... so vibrant. See the bird, over at the left? It flew the whole rainbow ... it's nearly at the end. It means that Monkey will be here soon ...

And lastly, just for fun .... every time I upload my pics, Tiger had grabbed the camera and taken a random photo. Sometimes of the garbage bin, or the back of my head when I don't know. He must have liked his dinner last week!! :)


I just ate a tomato - a whole tomato, grown in our veggie garden. It's 11.17pm, and I'm up eating tomatoes. I'm SO going to bed right now.
xoxoxoxxo

4 comments:

Fertilized said...

Holy cow LOOK at htat rainbow .. goodness I have goose bumps!

waitinginline said...

What a beautiful post with beautiful pictures!

Chas said...

Great pictures! Love the rainbow!!

Bee Cee said...

This was such a lovely story. You sound in such a happy place....send a rainbow my way will you?